I always changed my way of doing things
when and if anyone worshipped or criticized me or what I did.
Especially in musical issues and choices;
the way I play or compose or perform.
In Dutch we say: “to be everymans friend”,
which means “to please everybody” in following
people’s opinions and trying to act how they want.
But how can I possibly know what other people mean, what they desire?
Not by any means!
Trying, suffering, doing and trying again what others want?
It almost took my life, my entire energy, my personality.
The project of PianoTweets is the ultimate proof of the fact that
I always will follow the voice of my heart,
the direction of my intuition,
the movement of my fingers…
Don’t know why,
but one of these days
my thoughts suddenly went back
into a strong memory from the past.
During my adolesence
I was desperately in love
with a girl in my class.
But she nearly didn’t notice me.
Yes, she behaved a kind of polite and civilised to me,
but keeping a distance that made me cry so often…
Finally, after all, I got myself together:
I asked her to go skating with me.
I was so surprised!
She said yes and we enjoyed a nice couple of hours.
But I kept my feelings hidden,
I didn’t have the courage to speak out.
And life went on;
what happened that night
took a nice place in my Memory…